30 Jan, 2026

Things have been rather interesting for ne since I came back to SA.  Not only have I been reunited with Lil, I've also found myself getting close to another girl.  Weird, I never thought I'd open up again after Roanapur  but here we are.  

We also started up that old idea we had years ago, The Roses we call ourselves.  And this time no one will get hurt when we're around.  I'll make sure of that.  But anyway...  The badges have already been getting on my nerves lately.  Hodge... Detective Hodge is the biggest pain I've seen in a while.   Man has been terse and a jackass everytime we meet.  Well, make sure to pay him back at some point.  But to today.

We had a rave today.  It was pretty good too, till that pain in the ass detective  came along to ruin it.  Selling Liquer to a fucking minor he said.  What the actual fuck.  Jesus Christ this pisses me off. All we did was take over a damned tunnel and put on a god damned charity event for battered women.  You'd think we kicked their favorite puppy or something.   Well fuck them.  Not only that, they freaked out Lucy too.  Dumbass motherfuckers.   At least that female trooper was nice enough to not be a shithead. 

Whatever... what's done is done.  Hopefully I've tired myself out enought to actually get a decent nights rest for once.  The nightmares have been pretty shitty lately and I haven't gotten more than an hour of sleep in three days.  Well, is what it is.  Let's just pray sleeping by two cutie girls will make me feel better.

2 Feb, 2026

Where do I begin... Oh fuck... what did I say?!  Did I just really say that.  Did I just open myself up to that again?  What is wrong with me?  I know I shouldn't say that.  I know I can't do that.  I can't let people in.  I shouldn't...  FUCK!!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!!  Oh, hell... the beginning, I need to start at the beginning.

Our date was today.  Lil, Lucy, and I went out to the cemetary for our date.  We've been planning this for a while, and I do like Lucy, so it was really fun.  We hiked up to the sitting area on top of the hill and then went to play a little game in the graveyard with the Oiji board.  Now, Im not a fan and Miko would probably kill me if she learned I was messing around with that shit, but it's whatever.  But weird shit did happen.  I heard some whispering and when the badges, yes the damned badges showed up as always, so did they.  Weird, I never seem to have problems while Im out there.  But anyway we had fun there and then drove over to the Suburban nearby since Lucy seems to enjoy being called our good little kitten.  Yeah, I know right?  Who knew we could find such a cute girl to catch.  But I digress.  We went to the suburban to buy a new pair of cat ears for her, which she seems to enjoy.  And after that we went home. 

But she said soemthing to me...  a simple phrase.  I love you.   She said I love you...  and I said it back.  What the fuck have I done.  I said I'd never let anyone in like that.  Not again.  Not after Ken and Himiko.   I mean she's cute... and I really love it when she acts all bratty like she does...  Oh god, what the fuck am I doing?